|A three day old Felix, sleeping "like a baby."|
Up until this moment, I'd consider myself the kind of mom that puts the HIP in hippie. I did an all natural childbirth. And sure, I breastfeed... and yeah, we "co-sleep" and "wear" the baby. I even make a lot of Felix's food from scratch and we only use whole grain rice cereals. However, I do break out a jar of Gerber every now and again (mind you, it's the "all naturals" kind). I traded in the cloth diapering for good ol' fashion Huggies at about 4 months (after he outgrew the first batch of hemp prefolds). I wear makeup in public if I get the thirty seconds to apply and I am pretty much hooked on "Keeping Up With the Kardashians."
All peace and love aside, I woke up this morning on a mission. After another sleepless night with a perma-latched baby, I decided it was time to switch my game up. I've tried the no-cry sleep "solutions." The "lovie," the swaddling, the swinging, the singing, and the womb sound giraffe (which we do really love). I've given him formula before bed. I've given him rice milk mixed with breast milk in a bottle before bed. I've tried co-sleeping, in-room-bassinets, and giving Felix his own space. Call the authorities... I've even tried leaving a (gasp) small pillow and blanket in his bassinet. Until now, our pre-bedtime routine was bath, book, and nurse to sleep.
|Felix in desperate need of a nap.|
tree baby-hugger in me has avoided these three awful words like a festival chick avoids paying for a beer ("Hey, mama... can I have a spill of your drink?"): Cry. It. Out. Yet a nagging little voice (my mother's intuition) has been telling me to look in to similar methods for the past few (stressful, sleepless) weeks or so. Today, I gave in and let my instincts do the talking. After researching Ferber and similar sleep systems, I decided to take some tips and go in to this evening with a new outlook.
Here's the run down:
- Dinner. Playtime. Nursing... all before 7:45PM.
- At 8:00PM Felix, my Mom, and I started the bath routine. While my Mom finished up, I did last minute safety checks on Felix's bassinet (which is in our bedroom). I turned on his crib soother, the womb sound giraffe, the birdie night light, and the constellation turtle... creating a happy atmosphere for Felix to go to sleep in.
- By 8:30PM, Felix and I were cozy in his room reading his absolute favorite book, "The Very Hungry Caterpillar."
By 8:36PM, I was beginning the battle (oh shit, girl... hold my hoops). The following are just some of the notes I made during the preceding 49 minutes, clutching the monitor with my eyes on the clock - fighting my own tears and desperately trying to "self soothe."
- 8:37PM - F in to bed awake. And OK. F watched crib soother for a minute, then became upset.
- 8:41PM* - (I go in room) - I managed to barely soothe F. He's very panicked.
- 8:42PM - Very upset. Crawling. Standing.
- 8:45PM* - (I go in room) - Unsoothable. Offered bottle with water. He drank at first, then refused.
- 8:51PM* - (On another room visit) - I sat next to his bed as he cried very hard. Calmed a bit.
- 8:56PM - Periods (1-2 seconds each time) of quiet between crying. Atleast 10x. Quieter voice in shrieks. Is his voice tired?
- 9:01PM* - (I'm in room for 4th time) - MILDLY soothed. Rolled over to his side to his "sleep position" and did dull whine. Refused water and pacifier.
- 9:08PM - He fell asleep sitting with head against mesh. Woke up. Fell back asleep. Woke up, looks sleepy.
- 9:10PM - Falling asleep periodically, only whining and slowly crawling.
- 9:18PM* - (I'm baaaack) - While patting his belly, he fell asleep briefly.
- 9:25PM - Slumped, sitting, sleeping.
- 9:26PM* - (My "last" trip... number 6) - The Reposition Voyage. He woke during re-positing VERY briefly, then went right back to sleep very peacefully.
So... did it work? I guess that's to be determined.